ONETWOTHREE!

» Monday, April 5, 2010 / -10:42 PM

hi ;D im back again. didnt blog for a while yeah? this is the first post for 2010.....

can i get straight and hit? malas lah,nak bunga bunga ;) heee...

So...............i mau membual dulu yeeee,since kena ucap pembual,imma take that opportunity to membual. Hahaha. This is what i experience for the past year. For me this experience is excruciating because it is hard to change and turn back time. It brings you to a situation that you may not be able to get out for a long time. Like me,im stuck in this for like a whole year..but Thank god,im out of it now.

This is what happened…
There's this girl..a random girl who i never judged nor talked about. She WAS my boyfriend's bestfriend "used-to-be" and i was totally fine with it cause they've known each other before i know this guy. Since,me myself has a boy-bestfriend so its understandable. No jealousy,not trying to be close with,no NOTHING. Everything was going on smoothly,the love thing,the relationships everything was going on perfectly. Till the day,i found out these two were talking behind my back. Read everything they've talked about. The inbox and sents. So,i wonder..why the girl who always starts the topic about me? Why she hated me that much,which i didnt know and did not even do anything bad to her. Sadly,not even friends. Sense anything now? The worst part is,he hated me first before we fell inlove. I don’t know if it is really hate,hate or just tryna be the best friend-role around her. Before I even knew this two people exists in this world.

Im not going to touch the part what they have said about me. Reading all their texts made me feel so utterly devastated,still i can feel it right now. Every topic was about me,talking bad about me this and that. Every words is still in my mind. The guy regrets of his doing,he gave me this reason "aku kn jaga hatinyaa saja,pasal kesian kan ia" he was really sorry..texted me every minute,promised him self not to be friends with her. I did not have anything said that time. I did gave him his SECOND CHANCE,cause the journey we had been through,i dont wanna ruined it by just letting it go. All i can say is,IT JUST HAPPENED. He's still a part of me eventhough he had made me suffer. is suffer a right word to use? PAIN is inevitable.

I did ask whyyyyy? Why she hated me that much.. There's this gig organised by my friend in my house,that’s the day she started to hate me,when i dont even recognised she was even there in my house. She said that she hated me pasal 'sanak dangar suara ku bising2' i wonderrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr..its my house,its my place,its my voice..its my right? right? so,yeah whatever with that..Others was just some stories that’s been made and misunderstood. After 10 pages of texting over and over again..she did begged for forgiveness. She said,she’s not a bad person,sorry for her doings,she’s not trying to be bad,that’s just her suka ‘mgucap’ org blablablabla…..sorry this sorry that sorry sorry sorry .|. Ohh,I remembered something she said in her text “don’t take life too serious” -_-‘’ I did commented on this the last year’s post :D malas nak cakap lagi. How I wish I just could post those print out 40pages of their texts. But NO.

There’s this one day,my boyfriend stayed the night at my house. He went online beside me,so she texted normal text. I wasn’t really giving all attention to it. She asked where is he and he told her that he’s at my house. And suddenly stop texting..but by looking at her status,pm-ed and blog,she’s saying this asshole stuff. Okay don’t mind that..whatever on that!! The thing is she really hated that we are together. Always asking him when is he going to leave me and stuff? Like ‘Bila ko inda sama ia lagi?’ weird rightttt? But whats happening between me and him was heaven,like nothing is wrong. I did try to leave him twice i think,when small problems arise,but he was not ready to leave. Begging not to go,telling me he’s apart of me and more. I know everything that’s going on.

Bah eh,moving on…so,if you guys were in her position. After knowing that i knew about all that. Would you still butt on my life? i guess your answer is NO right? You’ll be ashamed and never wanna disturb that person’s life anymore. Kan kan? If not why beg and say sorry for? Adding all my friends,wouldn’t that be just a shame? Don’t you think ill share my problems with my friends? Don’t you think they will talk about you? Yes, i share all my problems with the one im close with. So..boo you!

something i found in my hardisk and wants to shareee :)

Status –
‘Khareema - majal jua ko add. kna ignore sudah tah. penyasak!!!!’

Girl - Hahahaha yehaaa~sapa yg penyasak ane kima?

Sam - wahhhh apakan ni ahhh....gila jua ehh

Me - bowhh. hahahaha. terasa kah? sian juaaaaa
Sam - wahhh bida jua ia terasa ahh... Relex saja yo trasa ahh...agagaga

Me - siann eh. aku di panggilnya 'kima' sapa yg kima cari pasal arh urg nada salah arh ea. lagi LAMEEEEE yo. haha.

Sam - wahh ia ucap ko kima kah..?? mebe ia x kimaa ahh.. LAMEE lar tu ia tuu ahh..bidaaaa~~ agagaga

Me - diam eh. hahahahaha.

Sam - hmmmmm...... agagagag

Girl - kra urg add balik2 tu kra jdi masalah mu lah tu owh reem..?

Sam - mun sudah nda kana accept,jadi masalah tu yo~

Me - nda pulang jdi masalah. pasal kau x jadi masalah? hahahaha. kesian saja wahh. awwwwww :( hahahahaha

Girl - mun nda jdi masalah mu nda pyh tah kn sasak2 ahh? k? pnyasak mu atu yg patut dbari ksian.. ahahahah. mun nda kna accept balik2 nda pyh tah kn show off mental mu ah..

Sam - btw ia nda plang sasak..p ko yg bwt ia sasak ahhh...pnyasak mu nda ksian x..??? ouchh!!!

Me - adedehhhh. gila jua. bosssy jua ulah mu dang. kn nyuruh2 ane. aku punya pasal lah kn show off kah apa kah. its my thing girllll. hahaha. anyways,like i said its my FB like how i used to say to u..its my house & its my right to have a loud voice. yg kesiannya kau laaaa..pasal u know. bitch who dont have a life sitting at home all day. hahahaha. &ea sendiri nda mau accept ko. bukan aku suruh. yatah mcm kesian kn bila ya gto aku ko add ya g. mcm awwwwww *ouchhhh* hahahahahaha.

Sam - ahahahahahha ouchhhh!!

Girl - sam: ko jgn mcm bni2. mihir wah usul mu ah. kn jdi poklen x? gla kah. ia plg yg out2 ane. eh awu ahh aku buat ia sasak owhhh? sorry~ anyway lyat balik txt mu ah. mun nda pndai cover urg nda pyh.

Me - masalah nya ane ja yo..ko terasa apa hal? terasa ko balek2 add ea nda kna accept atu kah?ko yg mihir terasa ahh. mcm kesiannn kan. hahahahahahhaa. *nyaman tawa* aku plang nie yg awal buat ko sasak ne? hahahahahha. nyaman tawa lagiiii. wahahahahahhahaha. cali ko ane...apa nda bnyk urg ckp ko cali. bru ku tau ko cali ah.

Sam - aku nda mcm bini2 pun..aku poklen,ko cucurambo rayat jati lar...btw ri,sudah tah okiee..jan add2 aku g and jan comment sal aku k..aku tired ni cani ani ahh.. .l. eerrr!!

Girl - fyi, aku add kau as my friend list. i will never comment or txt u anymore phm? mmg ku dcide awal lah. so what x kedua ku add? nyasal plg ku eh add x kedua hahaha klu ku tau cani jadinya. mcm ku add x kdua kamu plg shock. wtf. anu nada2. k end. reem, end.

sayonara.

Sam - ehh,ko ucap aku apahal ahh..??? ko ada masalah sama aku kah..?? lau nada,jan kcau aku and cBaby g..

Sam - bah kalo sudah nda kana accept dri awal,jantah majal lagi ahh..bah kalo end tu,bwt cara end okieee..???

Girl – wakarimashta! Elek wang alum ku ngacau.

Sam - bah lau nda kacau,sudah tah ahh..jan tah kan majal mreply ahh.. .l.

Me - atu ya majal!! andang ko pemajal ka jenisnya? end tu buat cara end yo!!! nda pyh kn sambung lagii yo. b4 kta end lah,sorry lah wont do it again lah mua mu nahhh. maseh jua ko attraction mcm urg nda bsalah. KUTURRRRR PAGE KU EHHHH!!!!

HAHAHAHAHAHA. Funny ey? im laughing my ass off when i read this. I knowwww sekadar pulang,but yeah when you hated that someone? Everything can happen ;)
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Then came this girl....during my birthday,she texted the cbox in my blog,i wont say anything cause i didn’t save any texts that was posted. Don’t wanna be called a liar  but it sounds like congratulating me being with sam. She just knew maybe...  come on,people move on okay. The exact date on my birthday,there were friends staying over at my place. Including my BF,he received a text msg saying ‘hpy bday..wawawawawawa’ -__-‘’ couldn’t care less,cause don’t wanna spoiled my day. Then came another text ‘sam **** ni,sorry *** mabuk dah tu’ then.........................okay,so? And your point is? Hehehe.

Ive chat with her once and talked. Like no hating and stuff. Y’know. But the next thing i know after that is,she’s being friends with the first girl i talked about. Then yeah,whatever..dont know don’t care. They talked about him giving them the same t-shirts before and blablabla don’t care don’t care. Saw a picture of the game in facebook ‘pet soceity’and visited my BF’s pet with his name on the wall. So once again,blablabla don’t care don’t know. Haha! Then ive been testing my patience,being patience all the time. All the time through whatever.

Then came up this year,an ex posting up old pictures of she and your boyfriend? How would you feel about that? Wont you burst out into madness after being patience all along? Tell me if im wrong here. Then, get over it. She told me ‘its only a picture’ and she wont delete it. So,i get over it. Then came this small little problem between me & my BF. So i posted their pictures on his FB. I know i know..was being childish at the time :D but then,the ex gets mad. Hahahahahaha. Get over it right? She’s the one who’s been saying ‘its just a picture’ rightttt? So why care? So she wrote on her status..but,what had me shocked is,the girl that im talking about up there pun ada menyampok. and ia terpulang yg marah over2 ani? as if its her problem..heran tak? continue..........

So,now this are just the first part of the story. So,now..who’s disturbing who’s life? You can’t judge unless you’ve been in that situation before.If you would just jump into the conclusion that im the bad one & the reason of all this hell, then, the complete story line is not with you. I have moreee to come :) WAIT FOR IT. this time it'll be moreeee scarsm in it!

kanak2 beceritaaaaaa aku tuu ;)